This isn’t BAMF Cas. This is Cas being suicidal. Warning: a no doubt very unpopular opinion ahead!!!
Basically saying “I’ll kill us both before I let you win!” And Crowley gets it, because if Crowley
is wasknows anything about angels then apparently the blue glowy stuff coming out is a Bad Thing (reminds me of what happens when Alastair tries to exorcise Cas in season 4, right?). And when Anna’s grace was released, more glowy that destroyed Alastair’s vessel, even though Alastair was a very strong demon AND also destroyed Anna’s human body.
So was Cas basically ready to shove his Grace outside his vessel and self-destruct in order to completely destroy Crowley’s vessel/meat-suit/whatever? It would also fit into Cas’s suicidal frame of mind. We don’t know what would happen, but when Anna forcibly separated herself from her Grace, she lost her angelhood and became human.
And if Cas did essentially exorcise himself, he wouldn’t return to Heaven—he hasn’t up to this point ever returned to Heaven since being Godstiel, either because he can’t or because he won’t. When he’s been resurrected, it was on Earth. Even when he was banished, it was to a far corner of Earth. If he yanked his Grace out to destroy Crowley, would that also have destroyed his vessel—burned away that mortal shell that still resembles Jimmy Novak?
So does Cas hate himself or his angelic nature, or both? Probably both, but it’s his angelic nature that won’t let him forgive himself—the nature that equates disobedience with death, so as long as he’s alive….the price hasn’t been paid. And the nature that won’t allow him to die, that keeps the memories of God and Heaven and Earth’s history and all the wrongs that he, Cas, has committed in his memory… Because Angels apparently never forget, unlike humans, who can eventually allow our misdeeds to pass from the front of our minds through the simple expedience of Time and aging. His angelic nature which is a constant reminder of how he failed. He hears the other angels, but the silence gets to him, the voices that were there once and now are no longer. Would he rather not hear angels at all, than continue to hear the few who are left?
Maybe Cas’s self-loathing will be the reason that he embraces Humanity… Humanity is gentler with our sins—we can forget the faces of those we’ve wronged, the faces of those we’ve loved and lost—we don’t hear the silence of the angels, we don’t feel the literal presence or absence of God. There’s comforts, too—chocolate cake and laughter, and doing good for those whom you can look into their faces and see the difference that you made. There’s babies and cats, and swimming in the ocean, and hugs. And love.
If Cas’s guilt leads him to choose being human, then that’s another signpost on the way to the End!Verse…and yet what a difference a small thing like *choice* makes! Cas’s grace isn’t taken from him…it’s laid down, like a burden that’s become too heavy to bear. Cas would see human traits—mortality, forgetfulness, slower mental powers, the people around him, even a relationship with Dean—all those would be blessings, not a curse, not the last solace of a hopeless fallen creature.
All those human things would be a relief, and he would have finally paid the price that his angelic nature demands for disobedience…death. And he could be at peace.
Agreed. Crowley seems to recognize exactly what Cas is doing here hence the statement he makes. That alone should indicate something more serious than just killing Crowley.
I’ve just realized that in “where’s your angel”, the “your” might refer to both Dean and Sam. As in “where’s that angel that always helps the two of you”. However, Crowley looks straight at Dean, and Dean bites back automatically.
First of all, it’s obvious for everyone in the room that “your” means specifically “Dean’s”. Dean himself feels like he’s compelled to reply, and like it’s completely natural that he’s the one that should feel provoked and has a reason to counter-attack. Sam doesn’t even think he’s involved. It’s something that has to do with his brother.
Another interesting thing is how Dean doesn’t bother making any sort of bitchface because “not my angel Crowley, getting tired of your shit”. He does, on the contrary, imply that’s his angel by answering.
And finally, as someone else pointed out (sorry, I can’t remember who!), it’s interesting that the comeback is something that implicitly empowers Castiel on a sexual level. As the person in that post pointed out, Dean has belittled Cas sexually in the past. I don’t think he’s ever actually aknowledged Cas’ sexual drive. Now? He’s asserting his potence. And he’s directing it against someone else, using it as a sort of weapon. Basically, he’s just said: “yeah Crowley, that’s my angel, and he’s more powerful than you”.
Did I just meta about an immature, apparently throwaway line?
artist comments: Crowley pre-Fall. My personal headcannon is that he was an angel of flora, maybe even infatuated with it. The only thing that he particularly enjoyed about the job, but it’s not as if he can’t raise plants as a demon, as we all know. Sorry the anatomy is all wonky, I’m awful doing traditional stuff. Plus I’m flying high on percocet right now (had my wisdoms all pulled last night).
Because I need to express my thoughts and feels, okay?
This is just a quick gander into the way the relationship between Aziraphale and Crowley progresses in Good Omens throughout the book, probably in not too eloquent a format.
What strikes me is that at the beginning, it is portrayed as very much a matter of necessity/convenience rather than emotional fulfillment: “they wouldn’t have chosen each other’s company voluntarily” is how the book puts it, and presents the saving of time/expenses as the main, practical benefit of the Arrangement. This is obviously what the two (want to) think of the Arrangement, and somewhat in contradiction to what is actually shown: they’re both intimately aware of each other’s hobbies and interests and make a habit of dining or feeding the ducks together. It is clear their relationship already has an emotional level that goes beyond the necessary, but they do not actively acknowledge it.
How that comes to change is one of the running themes in the book.
the romantic comedy
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